At church yesterday I went into Relief Society and the
lesson was on Elderly in the Church. Immediately I knew that I was going to
feel my grandma Budd. I felt the spirit so strong and I knew that I wanted to
say something about my grandma, but I get so scared. The teacher said, “Does
anyone have anything to share?” She looked right at me and said, “I know you
want to say something.” So for the first time EVER, I commented in Relief
Society. I am shy, nervous and intimidated and it is so hard for me to talk in
front of people. Right away I started crying. Yes, that is one reason why I don’t
talk in church… I cry.
I grew up living with my grandma from the time I was 11
until I got married. She was a 2nd mom, she was an example of
humility, kindness and love. She gave me more compliments than anyone has ever
given me. She helped me know of my great worth. I strive to be like her. I miss
her every day, I miss her laugh, hugs and telling me she loves me. Every time I saw her she told me that I was a
good mom. Whenever I’ve doubted my role as a woman or mother I hear her telling
me I am great and it is one of my callings. I wish everyone could have known my Grandma Merle Viola Stout Budd.
About a year ago I heard a song and found out it was by
Carrie Underwood from one of The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe movies. I
downloaded it on my itunes and couldn’t stop listening to it. It made me think
of both of my Grandma’s. Both were amazing, but neither one was ever rich or
famous. They didn’t hold high callings, but they were kind good women. The song,
There’s a Place for us. Really reminds me of my grandparents being together in
heaven. Even though they weren’t a King or Queen or Rich or famous, there is
something special for them. Something bigger for each of us. HERE is a video of the song.
I am thankful for both of my grandmas and Ryan’s grandmas. I
wanted to name McKenna after someone special and my niece suggested the name
Mae. I loved it and after she said it I realized that it represents all four of
her Great grandmas. Merle, Maxine, Alene and Elaine. They are all such special
ladies and have impacted me in some way.
I loved the lesson about the Elderly in our church. They are
amazing and should be loved and respected. Someday it will be me. I loved the
quote from Ezra Taft Benson. “I hold special feelings for the elderly. I feel
that in some measure I understand them, for I am one of them.” You can read the full lesson HERE.
